Sweet . . serenity | Toby

[tobias james whicker]

He was so mesmerized by her that it wasn't even funny. Even inside the little old and gloomy boathouse she lit up his world. She had this kinda aura about her, it screamed I'm beautiful and intelligent and I have no idea. It's kind of what made him go absolutely crazy about her. She just seemed so oblivious to all the looks and grins she gets from all the guys, of which drives him extremely crazy. It takes a lot to hold it together, because if he didn't then all the guys at this school would be spending their days in the infirmary.

He watched the way curiosity played across her face, the way it seemed to show her interest in him. He looked around the room, at all the spider webs that enclosed the filthy ceiling. He listened to her words, and let the atrocity of them settle in. She didn't understand that he didn't want anyone else, he would dye trying to earn her live. She was beautiful, smart, and graceful. How could he not possibly want that? It would take death to keep him from pawning after her, how could he not? She was possibly the only girl he has ever had the time of day for.

He watched her intently, not the slightest bit scared to tell her exactly how he feels. "Because I don't want anyone else, I would give up everything for you, even my happiness," he told her, a smile on his face. He watched her as she looked away, out the window. He just kept his eyes on her beautiful face, mesmerized by her radiant beauty. Their was just something about her. He couldnt stop his feelings for him, he didn't choose for them to be there.

He listened to her next words, which made his heart stop. It was kind of like a slap in the face. He felt like she had just broken his heart. Slowly he pulled himself away from her body, and leaned against the wall. He didn't know what to do, she was too damn stubborn. Suddenly he felt angry, mad. He wanted to hit something, let out all his anger and heartbreak. "You don't even understand my pain," he told her, feeling the familiar clogging of his throat. "Here I am, confessing myself to you, and you act like none of it bothers you?" He asked her, feeling his composure breaking. He began to pace, shoving his hands though his ashy blonde hair.

[katerina luna raven]

"Because I don't want anyone else, I would give up everything for you, even my happiness,"

Katerina was still staring out the window at the lake as Toby said these words. She closed her eyes and chewed at her bottom lip until some blood pooled in her mouth. She licked her lip in an attempt to stop the bleeding. Toby's words kept breaking down bricks that made up the walls around her heart. Every second the walls kept getting shorter and shorter. Any minute she wouldn't have any walls left. "You are insane. . to want me that badly." She whispered softly and opened her eyes.

Kat turned her head to look at Toby after she had corrected him on her name. She watched as he slowly pulled away from her. She could see the emotions swirling around on his face. Her correction had definitely hit something inside of him. She felt herself press back against the wooden wall as she saw the anger and heartbreak clouding his beautiful face. Now what had she done??

"You don't even understand my pain,"

Of course she didn't! She wasn't him. She wasn't the one who has spent years chasing after someone who was clearly a loner too scared to commit to love! He didn't understand her and that's what was bringing him pain. The constant rejection because he didn't know what was going on inside her. Of course, that wasn't his fault. She wouldn't let him in. So how could he know and understand?

"Here I am, confessing myself to you, and you act like none of it bothers you?

That broke down the last few bricks of her last wall. Her heart was exposed now as she watched him pace back and forth with his hands in her hair. Now she, herself, was angry as well. " 'Like it doesn't bother me??' You think it doesn't BOTHER me!?" Kat cried out. She blindly grabbed an oar and threw it. Not at Toby, no, just partly across the building, away from him. Katerina covered her mouth to keep a sob from escaping it. She quickly moved to the window to hide her face from him. She needed to calm herself down. Kat leaned he head against the cool glass and closed her eyes as she breathed in shaky breaths.


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[tobias james whicker]

Katerina was like a drug for Tobias, she was really the only thing that kept him going. He was so fed up with his life, school, and his family. He had never met his dad and he absolutely hated his mom. She was the only happiness in his life, she literally lit up his world. Watching her fly though school work like nothing, receive Christmas gifts from her family, and wander around the school grounds. And all those times she had turned bin down, they never hurt nearly as bad as now.

It was like he finally realized how strong and complete his feelings really were for her. He couldn't imagine himself with anyone else. She was hurting him. She was sucking the life out of him. Soon his stomach was hurting from the pain, he felt like breaking down and crying, but if she wouldn't accept him then he wouldn't let her see that side of him. He needed to escape from here, all he wanted to do was escape away with her. He wanted to grow old with her, to raise children with her, and to die with her in his arms. That's all had ever asked from her, he wanted to make her the happiest girl in the world.

When her words reached his ears, he wanted to lash out. To break something. Obviously it didn't bother her, she wasn't the one who had been rejected every day of his life. He was even rejected from his parents, but her had always hurt the worst. He turned to slam his hands down on the railing that separated the wooden floor from the water at the same time that she had thrown that ore. He growled slightly and huffed. He ran his hands over his face and took several deep breaths, trying desperately to calm himself down, but with no avail.

"Why would it bother you?!" he spit out at her. All his anger was being released out, after all those years of being able to compose his self, he had lost all self control. "You don't even fucking like me!" he spat out. He slammed his hands down on the railing again. He rubbed his hands over his face, wiping away the tears that had escaped. He had finally admitted something to himself that he had never done before. He had told himself all these years that she was just playing hard to get and secretly she actually liked him. He put his hands on the railing, using it to hold himself up with.

[katerina luna raven]

Katerina flinched when he hit the railing with his hands and told her that she didn't even like him back. That was a lie but he didn't know that. He couldn't get inside of her head to know that. She opened her eyes but kept her forehead pressed against the glass. She felt that the glass was the only thing keeping her steady at the moment. It was nice, cool, and a bit tranquil feeling. A feeling that she wanted right now but she was unsuccessful at getting it. Anger and frustration were the only feelings coursing through her body at the moment.

"That's not true Tobias." Kat spoke. She lifted her head from the glass and the coolness from it instantly faded from her forehead. Now all she could feel was the thick, anger filled tension that clotted up the air in the boat house. All the tension was making it a bit hard to breath even. At least that's how she felt. Kat turned away from the window. She glanced over at him before running a shaky hand through her blonde locks.

Her feet made soft thudding sounds on the floor as she moved away from the window. Once she was a good couple feet away from it and a bit closer to Toby she stopped. Kat straightened her stance and leveled her brown eyed gaze on the distraught male before her. She could see the tensed muscles working in his arms, neck, back, as he forced himself to gain some control. Waves of anger rolled off of him and they seemed to hit her lock a hot summers breeze.

Katerina lifted her chin and swallowed. What she was about to say was really putting this relationship out on the line so to speak. Heck, what she was about to give him permission to do was something she had never let anyone do. Just thinking about it made her heart beat faster and she could already hear her heart beating in her ears. "If you truly like me the way you say then show me. Hopefully my response to whatever you do will help you decide if I like you or not." Kat said as she watched him.


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[tobias james whicker]

When she told him that his words weren't true it took everything in his power to keep from breaking down. How could he believe her, that's not what she has told him since the first day that he had asked her to go out with him. She always told him that he was weird, a freak, and that she wished he would just leave him alone. Their had been a few times when he had even considered it, but his love for her had outweighed his decision. Their was no way he would just let her go, it would be impossible.

He could hear her walking towards him, and every fiber in his body yearned for him to yell out and tell her to leave him alone, but he couldn't bring himself to do that to her. By now he could feel her gorgeous eyes on him, and surprisingly he didn't feel the slightest big self conscious. He had always felt like he could be himself around her. He took several more deep breaths, trying to calm himself down for her. The she spoke again, and he felt his heart speed back up.

Slowly he turned his head around, to stare dumbfounded at the beautiful girl that was standing behind him. She looked slightly scared and nervous. He could tell that this was a lot for her to say. He gripped the railing and turned back around, stopping himself from running to her and kissing her. He didn't know what had possessed her, but he decided quickly that he liked it. He stood up straight and turned around to face her. He took a few steps forwards until he was standing right in front of her. Her perfume instantly filled his nose, and he couldn't help but go close bid ryes and take it in. He realized then that he would never get over her.

Slowly he opened bid eyes and pulled both of his hands up to her face. He gently cradled her face in his hands, using his thumbs to lightly caress her cheeks. He looked into her eyes, a smile dancing on his lips. His heart had swelled to the size of Kansas and the sick feeling that had been in his stomach had disappeared. He brought his lips to her forehead, lightly placing a kiss there. He pulled back, and bent down, removing his hands from her face. He put one of hands on her waist and put put the other on the back of her neck. Pulling her closer to him, he crashed his lips do hers. The softness of her lips was like candy, and it made hi slightly crazy. Electricity filled his body, making shivers climb up his back. He could feel every part of her body against his, and he knew that he would be lost in her for forever.

[katerina luna raven]

The male before her turned his head to stare at her and she felt herself stiffen in anxiety. She was worried about the look that would be on his face once she saw it. Her worries weren't needed though. When she saw the confused look on his face she instantly relaxed. She had expected him to even more mad. Mad because he may think that she was just teasing him when that was far from the truth. Toby looked away after he had stared at her for a moment. Kat blinked and held herself back from knotted her hands together in worry. Did not want to touch her now?

Her question was answered with a huge 'no' as he moved away from the railing and walked toward her. Kat's breath caught in her throat as his hands held her face and his thumbs caressed her cheeks. All she could do was stare up at him, her mouth slightly agape. When he kissed her forehead she felt her eyes flutter close for a second before reopening when he pulled back to look at her again.

It was then that she felt his hand wrap around her waist while the other held her neck. A shiver ran up her spine at his touch. Shortly after the shiver she felt heat spread throughout her body as he pulled her closer and his lips slammed against hers. Her eyes instantly closed and all she could do was melt into the kiss. One of her hands came up and grabbed a handful of his shirt in an effort to pull him closer. The other reached up and gently cradled one of his cheeks.

The kiss seemed to last for years until Katerina had to pull away to breathe. She slowly pulled her face away just enough for her to try and grasp some oxygen to refill her lungs. Opening her eyes she looked up into his and let a small smile play on her lips as she breathed in and out as if she had just finished running a marathon.

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[tobias james whicker]

The way she reacted to his touch, mesmerized him. This was the day that he had been waiting for since the day he first laid eyes on her. He never imagined that it would feel this good, not in a million years. It almost seemed like she was just as lost in him as he was in her. The static between them seemed to thicken because he felt like he wouldn't be able to live without her right there in his arms. They way she made him feel was out of this world, it was like a drug to him.

The way their lips moved together, in perfect synchronization, was almost unbelievable. He felt the heat spread throughout his body, it was like a forest fire. It would be almost near impossible to put out. He felt her dainty hand grab at his shirt, pulling him closer into her. It seemed like he obeyed her command, because at that moment their bodies melted together into one beautiful being. He felt her hand touch his face, caressing him. Another wildfire seemed to spread throughout his body, making him feel like a million dollars.

That passionate kiss seemed to last for all eternity, which was perfectly alright with Toby, he could literally just die. Eventually someone had to break the kiss, and he was slightly grateful for her, because he didn't think that he would have been able to. His arm snaked around her back, holding her in place against his chest. He took deep breaths, her breath mixing in with his. It was like heaven to him, her being his personal angel. He opened his eyes and looked down at her, losing his breath yet again. He didn't know what caused her to open her eyes and take a good look at him, but he wasn't going to question it.

He stared into her beautiful brown eyes, being overcome with his love for her, he bent down and planted a light kiss on her lips. He wanted to tell her so many things at that moment, but he didn't know how to. He was so weak from that kiss, he was at her power. The smiled that was on her lips, filled him with a warm feeling, making him smile as well. He leant forward and leaned his forehead against hers. "Best thing that has ever happened to me, would be you," he told her, closing his eyes, and meaning every word. He ran his hand over her hair, playing with the ends.

[katerina luna raven]

Seconds flew by as Kat tried to control her beating heart and take in oxygen. All her atoms in her body seemed to be bouncing off one another continuously as Toby held her in his warm, strong, loving embrace which was not much help to her if she wanted to calm down. Her breathing finally began to slow to a calm, steady pace just as Toby leaned down and planted a light kiss upon her slightly swollen lips.

Her small smile widened some more before he pulled away. "Best thing that has ever happened to me, would be you." He spoke. His words brought the whole situation down on her shoulders. She could easily look back over the years of Toby always being around and always asking her out, caring for her, among other things. During those times she always shut herself out and away from him, keeping herself emotionally distant. Now she was so emotionally attached that she finally realized what all his past efforts were for.

Kat kept her hold on his shirt and the thumb on her other hand that held his face slowly caressed his cheek as she turned her head to stay out one of the murky boat house windows. With her mouth slightly agape she let herself zone out for a moment to think. As her mind relayed all the other times that she had spent getting away from Toby she began to feel herself surrendering. But as she would do so her mind would fight back. She couldn't surrender to him. Something bad would happen in the end and she would be left alone. Her heart would argue back with all the good things about Toby.

Kat squeezed her eyes closed and willed the war between her heart and mind to cease. The war did end and she opened her eyes as her heart won. Her hiding, fighting, was over. If she could pulled out a white flag now she would. Kat turned her head from the windows to look up at Toby. She swallowed and stared into his eyes as her eyes showed that she had given in to him and she was finally his.

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[tobias james whicker]

After that kiss, Toby felt like he was on top of the world, a beautiful star in the dark night sky. He didn't know how to describe it, but one thing was for sure, he would spend the rest of his life trying to find the words. Toby had no idea what it was about her that drew him in, it was like a magnetic field or something. The pull he felt from her was strong, it would be nearly impossible for him to ignore it any longer, and he wouldn't, not if his life depended on it. His love for her wasn't something that had happened over night, but it was definitely real. He knew that she didn't love him yet, but he would spend the rest of his life showing her just how much she could love him, how much she could trust him.

The pull that he felt from her wouldn't allow for him to look away, which wasn't so bad, seeing as he didn't want to look away. He watched as she turned her head though, looking over towards the glass window. The girl's mouth was open and she looked to be zoning out. He didn't move, he just stood there, watching her. He felt his heart sink, thinking that he had said too much. He suddenly wanted to go run and jump into the black lake. He wanted all the monsters to eat him alive, or just drown him. He wouldn't be able to live without her, that would be completely impossible. He would rather have death than know that she would be off making a life without another man, he would definitely prefer death.

He was about to let go of her, and do exactly what he had been thinking about. All the images of the black lake, the merman tearing him into pieces had been very inviting, that was until she turned around and looked at him. A smile spread across his face, just knowing that she had finally given in to his pleading, after all these unbearable years. He would finally be able to kiss her, to hold her comfortably in his arms. He wanted to protect her from every boogeyman that had haunted her dreams. He wanted to build a house with her, sleep in the same bed with her, and raise beautiful children with her.

Gently he put both of his arms around her little body, and he pulled her up off the ground. Taking about four or five steps backwards, he carefully placed her back against the wall. He wanted nothing more at that moment. He had never wanted anything as much as her, and the feelings that were shooting through him are impossible to describe. He removed his arms from around her bodice, and placed his hands against her cheeks, gently kissing her on the lips. He had to use every last strength in his body from doing anything more. Even though he was yearning for her at that very moment, he didn't want to rush anything. He wanted to make every moment with her perfect and special, he would strive for that for the rest of his life.

[katerina luna raven]

Kat knew that the look in her eyes would tell Toby all he needed to know. She didn't really need a white flag, no, Toby was too smart and too determined to love her to need that. Another guy might need it but he didn't. The blonde bit her lip as her mind made up images of them together. They would eat together at the dining hall table now. Wouldn't that be a shock to their friends and the other people around them? Who would of thought that they would ever see Katerina willingly sitting next to Toby at the table or anywhere for that matter. Them at the dining hall table was just one of thousands of pictures that flashed through her mind.

Katerina blinked then and the images quickly faded to bring her back to reality. When she did come back she noticed that her shoes were no longer touching the wooden planks beneath them. In fact she was moving through the air, or rather, in Toby's arms. Kat glanced up at Toby as he kept moving backwards. When her back gently touched the wall she finally understand why they were moving. She let herself lean against the wall as the warmth of Toby's arm left her and his large hands ever so lovingly cupped her cheeks.

Kat closed her eyes for a moment just so she could focus all her thinking and feeling on how he held her face. A soft smile graced her lips as the warmth from his hands spread throughout her face then down her neck and along her shoulders and arms. The heat continued to move to ever part of her and it tingled. It was a good tingle though. A tingle that intensified at her lips as Toby kissed them once more. Kat leaned up some to deepen the kiss before she pulled away.

Her eyes opened to reveal the brown orbs that studied Toby's face. She couldn't help to smile some more when she noticed the look of control an yet total chaos in the male's sky blue eyes. It was as if he was holding back on her. This made her tilt her head to the side some like a puppy would. "You know, I'm not going to break Toby. So you don't have to hold back. . if you don't want to." She spoke with a light grin.



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[tobias james whicker]

Toby was possibly on cloud nine right now. To be honest, he was probably on cloud one million. He would never be able to come off this high, something dreadful would have to happen. And he prayed like hell that it wouldn't, he wouldn't be able to live with himself. As he stood there, his hands cradling Kat's beautiful little face, he felt his body fill with such comforting warmness. He didn't know exactly how this was possible. How she made him feel so many things at once. It made him forget about all his other problems. She was like his personal cure, he didn't think he could ever live without her.

He pushed his body up against hers, liking the way they melted into one being. He let his hands fall down from her face and they rested on either sides of her waist. He wanted to hold her in his arms for all eternity, to come somewhere where the full moon doesn't come up, where all his family problems can just slip away. "You know, I'm not going to break Toby. So you don't have to hold back. . if you don't want to." Katerina told him, her soft voice just flowing into his heart. She was really something special, he would never let her go.

Her words did cut through him though, like a knife. "I'm not going to break..." repeated thoughout his head, about a hundred times. He looked into her eyes, just thinking about the rejection that was going to come whenever she finds out about his little family heirloom. His heart began to break just thinking about it. He finally had her in his arms, and now he has to worry about losing her to his stupid curse. He watched face, the grin on her lips making his stomach hurt. He had no idea what he was going to do, he wouldn't be able to lie to her, that would kill him right away.

But he won't be able to tell her right now, he wanted to at least hold her in his arms for a little bit before she tries to strangle him and run away. "Trust me, I don't want to hold back, that's the last thing on my mind," he told her, a smile breaking out on his face just thinking about kissing her again. "But I don't want to take things too fast, I want this to be special, I want you to fall in love with me first." Toby told her, his heart and soul pouring out of his mouth. He would devote the world to this girl, their was no doubt about it.

[katerina luna raven]

Kat remained quiet after she spoke and her eyes continued to watch his face to try and see what emotions would show up next. As she continued to do so she felt Toby push his body against hers and the warmth of his hands moved from her face to waist in mere seconds. She blinked in surprise of the quick change but she didn''t mind. Still keeping the eye contact she had made earlier Katerina moved her arms up to wrap around Toby's neck.

As her arms loosely rested behind his head she began to notice the swirling changes in his sky blue eyes. It seemed that there was something troubling him. This made her heart hammer in her chest. As she said something wrong? Done something wrong? She didn't think she had otherwise we would have moved away from her instead of closer, right? Kat kept her grin on her face though as she tried to figure out the storm raging his eyes. If only she could get into his head to understand.

"Trust me, I don't want to hold back; that is the last thing on my mind." He said and Kat couldn't help but chuckle softly. The way he held his body against hers in this moment showed her that he was not kidding in the slightest. Katerina glanced down at how they were standing and where Toby's hands were lingering before looking back at his eyes. A soft smirk played on her lips. "For some reason I don't doubt that at all." She teased gently.

"But I don't want to take things too fast, I want this to be special, I want you to fall in love with me first." Those words came from the male's throat just after Katerina finished talking. Her heart swelled at this. Not only that but she felt more . . . safe. As if there was another deeper meaning besides the main one to show her that she could trust him. That he would never kiss and leave, ever. She smiled softly and at a loss of words she leaned up and gently kissed his lips.





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[tobias james whicker]

The way their bodies fit together, it was like magic. They were made for each other. No other girl would be able to make him feel the way she makes him feel, he wouldn't allow it. It would kill him if he ever saw her with another man, he would definitely take a good long swim in the black lake. As he stood there with her in his arms, their bodies melting together like chocolate and peanut butter, the petite girl raised her arms and wrapped them around his neck.

That right there was enough to send him into oblivion, but with perfection their always comes some kind of downfall or whatever you like to call it. Tobias' downfall or bad side would be his litte family curse, his magical wolf powers. Even thinking about it made him sick to his stomach. He didn't want to tell her, to bring her into his nightmarish world. He didn't want her to know that if they were to have kids they would also have this problem. That their will be little wolves running around. It's not normal, not something that he wants to put his precious angel through.

After he had admitted to her exactly how bad he wanted to kiss her, she let out a little laugh. Toby didn't really find it very funny, but he didn't let her see that. He just plastered a smile to his face, hiding away his pain. "For some reason I don't doubt that at all." she told him, a pretty little smirk upon her face. Even though it was going against his thoughts, he couldn't help but smile at her, she was way too damn beautiful. She was everything to him, every little piece of her mattered to him, even all the pretty little faults. Which were to him beautiful.

His eyes connected with hers, and before he could stop it, her lips were on his. Her sweet little pink lips were crushing against his, sending him into a wave of insanity. She drove him crazy, beyond belief. He kissed her back, sending all the anger that was bent up in him towards his father. All the nights that he had spend running around under the shelter of the trees, it wasn't the life he wanted. It wasn't the life he wanted to push upon Kat, it was all too much. His lips moved in synchronization with hers, their was no stopping it. He pushed up against her body, letting out a small growl of misery, he only wanted the pain to stop.

[katerina luna raven]

When Katerina leaned up to plant a soft kiss on his warm lips she was not expecting all that she got in return. No, she figured he would give her a quick peck or a short kiss before pulling away to help keep himself in check. That was not what she got at all. In fact, the young blonde found herself in what she believed to be what people called 'lip locked'. Both of their lips moved together perfectly and there seemed to be no end or in between just like their bodies since Toby had leaned in against her.

Kat felt herself melting into him even more, if that was possible, as one her hands tangled in his golden locks. The kiss or kisses seemed to continue when she heard a rather feral growl come from the deep recesses of Toby's throat. At least it sounded that way. At first Katerina wanted to brush it off as just a sound of pleasure but as her mind continued to analyze the sound she found herself thinking that there was a hint of misery interlaced throughout the tenor growl itself.

This made her lips transform into a frown. Katerina slowly pulled her face from his with some reluctance that was quickly replaced with concern. Did he really not want to kiss her so badly right now hat it made him sound. . miserable? Or was it something else? Kat chewed her poor, bottom lip for the millionth time today as she looked up at Toby, trying to read the emotion swirling around in his sky blue eyes.

"Toby? Is there something wrong?" She whispered softly. Kat brought a hand from the back of his neck to one of his cheeks so her thumb could gently caress his cheek bone. "If you don't want to kiss anymore then we won't, ok? I promise." She added. Her words were true. She had put this man through enough hurt and adding onto it was the last thing that she needed to do.



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[tobias james whicker]

The way they kissed was like paradise, it was everything he had ever dreamed of. Katerina was everything he had ever wanted in a girl. Her sweet personality, her beautiful face, and her pink lucious lips are all of the the reasons why he had fallen so head over heels for her. The way their bodies and lips melted together proved that they really were meant for each other, that no one else would be able to take either of their places, it just wouldn’t be possible. It was a surprise to him that all of this had come so naturally to him, because before her, he hadn’t even held hands with a girl, let alone kissed one. It was like magic, it was indescribable. The male’s hands roamed up towards her back, pulling her into a slight hug, holding her tighter agaisnt him, never wanting to let this wonderful beauty go. He wanted to hold her for all eternity. He felt her hands brush in through his hair, getting her dainty little fingers tangled with his dirty blonde hair.

And as soon as the beautiful girl pulled away, the pain had hit him head on. He didn’t want to tell her, he didn’t want to ruin what little chance with her that he had, and he surely didn’t want to scare the shit out of her. In his eyes, she is as precious as a flower. He wouldn’t be able to deal with it if he were to ever hurt her, he would cause as much pain to himself as he did to her, it wouldn’t be a very good sight. He closed his eyes, and kept them closed, he didn’t want her to see any of the pain that was now rushing to the surface. Taking a few deep breaths, he pushed his face into her neck, bending down slightly. He didn’t know what he was going to do, it was killing him not telling her, but it would kill her if he did tell her. Breathing in deeply, the smell of her wafting into his nose, filling his every pore. He hugged her tighter, trying to hold onto all humanity.

”Toby? Is there something wrong?” she asked him, bringing him out of his little sanctuary. Of course she would notice that he was on the ritz, it was kind of obvious. He pulled his head back, looking at her in the eyes. He couldn’t say anything, he hadn’t ever been a good liar, that was one of the many things he hadn’t succeded at. He just put a nonticibly fake smile on his face and shook his head, slightly robotic. He knew she was going to be able to tell, but he couldn’t tell her, not yet, he just couldn’t. ”If you don’t want to kiss anymore then we won’t, ok? I promise,” she told him, all seriousness in her voice. This actually made him smile, a bit of snicker slipping out of his mouth. The male found it amusing that she thought it was her, that she thought it was because of them kissing, even though it was like magic.

Tobias shook his head and moved his hands up to her face, making her look at him. ”That is the last thing I want you to do,” he told her, a smile evident on his face. ”To be honest, I want you to kiss me every day for the rest of my life, I wouldn’t want it any other way,” He added, planting a kiss on her forehead. ”Never, ever, think that because I may not be in the happiest mood, that it is your fault, because you my dear, have made me the happiest person in the world,” he let out, breathing a little huskily. The male planted a kiss on her nose, running his thumb across her left cheek. Just thinking about forever sent shivers up his spine, just knowing that he was going to have to tell her now, instead of dragging out his misery any longer. He just couldn’t bring himself to do it at this moment, at least a few more moments of holding her in his arms was all he needed to reasure him that maybe, somehow, she will understand and let him into her heart.